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Friday, 20 March 2009
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Jesus!....(last day of term 1)
Jesus fck my life! Sorry but I just need to get that out there. So it's the last day of term 1. I am not posting my weight I'm too pissed off about it and loads more. Hense the only thing I feel can express my frustration is cursing at religious figures that used to be so dear to me. I'm sure there are other ways but they don't feel as good atm.
FASTING DAY:1234567891011121314151617181920212223 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 40Yesterday was a good day but not good enough. On top of that I feel like sometime blogging has no point atal as only 4 people view my blog maybe, sometimes one of them comments. I'm pretty sure it's only looked at because I post thinspo.
I don't feel like posting any pictures today nor really posting atal. Today fcking blows.
Thursday, 19 March 2009
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FASTING DAY:12345678910111213141516171819202122 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 40So I updated Tuesday. You just can't tell. I even put up thinspo and changed my page a bit (mostly to procrastinate studying) and it shows up on my edit page where you can cange your 'feel' or whatever but NOT on the actual page. This is not the first time this has occured. Also not the first time it has failed to put up my post.
I'm done with exmas! It's spring holiday :D
Today is also day 22, 22 being my lucky number I have a good feeling about today, despite the fact I am getting a cold. I just took this cold med that you are supposed to take at the 'first signs' tastes like complete shit. I better not get a cold.
Weddings are quickly approaching, if I don't make my goal weight I don't know what I'm going to do, there will be definate panic attacks involved though.
Not much to say, Good luck on your last week of term one girlies!
Monday, 16 March 2009
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Exams!!!
FASTING DAY:12345678910111213141516171819 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 40Fast: Decided the cracker was okay to ignore because it would confuse my body and hopefuly raise my metab a bit right there. So I'm ignoring my cracker intake. You don't approve, I don't care- this is not your fast, it is mine.
Exams: Till Wednesday. Promise I'll start reading about all you guys soon! ><' The exams are killing me that and I'm still exhausted from France
France: AMAZING. Though some people I went with I don't like. Clubbed all Sat night until atleast 3am. So drunk. I allowed alcohol of course- I knew this at the begging of my fast, but I did not eat. I expected hopefully to loose 1 lb. I did. Probably because I danced so much I was sore the next day.
A lot of people are asking how I fast so long. The answer is less complicated then most people seem to make it especially since after day 3 you are pretty much home free. Energy comes from green tea and lots and lots of water and diet drinks. Don't think I'm not tired or don't sleep more. I do sleep more to provide me with more energy. It works also because when I get home from uni I take a wee nap (15min tops) and it really does the trick. Don't think I'm not hungery either. But hunger is my food. It's the feeling I'm living for because it means I'm becoming thin. Thin is something worth more than anything. If you are determined you will find a way. It is possible.
Last Week of UEN 1: this is the last week of the first term, make it count girlies- I know you can!!
Friday, 13 March 2009
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Crackers
So I ate a cracker/cookie. Just one, but I ate it. I am so furious.
FASTING DAY:12345678910111213141516 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 40Normally at day 15 I allow myself to have a fruit- like an apple, orange, etc. Something healthy low cal and can help my body and still count as my fasting. Well f-ck my life. I am about to give up fasting. I feel disgusting. I ate a bloody chocolate covered cracker. I am debating starting my fast over... even though it was for Lent I'll just do my Lent all over again.Or just quitting. Exams are next week. I want to scream.
France is tomorrow!! So excited, clubbing all night long. Except minour(or HUGE) detail. I look dreadful in my clothes because I have not lost the amount I planed I'm 8lbs behind. I don't know what to do. If I had worked out on the days I lazed instead I wouldn't be having this problem.
So thank you everyone for commenting- sorry I've been only posting and not reading your guys blogs- miss you lovelies. I will be more active after I'm back from France and studying for exams are fini!
::Brief Thinspo Dance/Party-like::
^girl in the wedding dress looks small to me, lucky^
^everyone wants ballerina bodies^
^miss notorious Party-Girl-Paris on the left and Britney-Who-Needs-a-Life of the right^
^wish my legs looked that good in a dress^
Always remember the sad but true fact: No one wants to be mates with the fattest girl in the room, let alone be her.
Wednesday, 11 March 2009
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My Poor Head...
FASTING DAY:1234567891011121314 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 40
Unlucky 13 over! Thanks to the girl who said once it's over I don't have to do it again. Sooo true. Kept me from binging yesterday was very close. Not something I want to do.... today is day 14. I managed to loose .5lb yesterday. which is better than the nothing I expected!So my head- I was standing on a chair to reach a box in my closet. I stood up pretty fast and smacked my head upon the closet doorframe. You know how many closets have a higher ceiling than the door frame- I didn't think about that and wacked the back of my head on that. Hurt so bad. I'm glad I didn't fall off the chair.....but now I have frozen blueberries in a bag resting on my head.
UEN is cool. The homework, though tedious can be very helpful when I feel like I'm getting nowhere with my fast and I'll be fat forever. Nope- not the case! I shan't let that happen. Best of luck to everyone, especially my fellow UEN students.
Cheers. Here is your double thinspo as promised
emptymeclean
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